“Goodbye” (Grace Gillespie song) – Queen City Sounds and Art

GraceGillespie_Photo — Grace Gillespie, photo courtesy the artist

Grace Gillespie’s voice is so vivid, intimate and direct on “Goodbye” and its shuffling, evolving guitar melody and spare rhythms so subtly moving and upbeat that you can get lost in the song before its depth and heaviness hit you. Certainly it’s a matter of interpretation but the folk-inflected piece comes off like a conversation to yourself writing a letter to someone you love but of whom you don’t know how you could be worthy. The chorus of “I don’t want to say goodbye/I’m not afraid of dying now/I am afraid to be alive” could take on multiple meanings like maybe you don’t want to sabotage something good and the prospect of doing so seems so terrible; that maybe you were seeing a blank horizon of your life without music or your chosen vocation to completely define it and that someone came along to expand what you thought could be your life with a meaningful relationship in it and that living in that expanded sense is scary because it will force you to change and face things about your personality you weren’t yet ready to look at and change. But the tone of the song is one of soothing and calming those anxieties and fears and a gentle call to be brave. Like in the beginning and the end of the song when Gillespie sings of putting down her guitars for awhile and “See what’s left of me under the sea of tangled wires.” The song is about choosing what might be great for you, challenging your insecurities because you need to whether or not it’s for anyone else and being willing to say goodbye to long cherished notions of what you have held onto as your identity even when it no longer makes sense or serves a life you want. Listen to “Goodbye” on Soundcloud and connect with Gillespie at the links provided.