Erika Wester’s Heartbreaking and Gentle “Fifteen” is a Song About the Power of Small Gestures of Compassionate Affection

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Erika Wester sounds like she’s brushing the gentle guitar chords throughout “Fifteen.” It provides the fragile textures and tenderly vulnerable mood of a song that is at once nostalgic and deeply melancholic. With each line Wester offers a vivid memory of a time that could be 10 years ago, 20, 30 or today. She taps into an emotional resonance that you never really age out of unless you get to a particularly callous and hard hearted place in your life. She recalls when she felt like she was growing up too fast and spouting off the kinds of sentiments that many bravado laden youths put out into the world that do the kind of emotional harm for which an apology can never be enough. But the song takes a turn from a memory of being fifteen and riding her bike to a time when she tries to console a friend or lover even though “I can’t fix the problems in your mind, god knows I barely tackle mine.” But she offers to a very basic, very simple but meaningful gesture of contact and comfort and says, “I’ll hold your hand in the dark if you want me to.” We don’t get to know the exact sources of pain, the searing images that stick with you that are hard to talk about and which no explaining away can easily soothe. We do hear about the aftermath in the song and some of the only ways that seem to work to help in a direct way that goes beyond mere words and straight to a sensation that communicates care without drama but imbued with significance. Listen to “Fifteen” on YouTube and follow Wester at the links below.

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Erika Wester Reflects on the Dubious Charms of a Dysfunctional Relationship on “Wanted To Be Like You”

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Erika Wester builds the soundscape of “Wanted To Be Like You” beginning with a spare acoustic guitar riff and minimal keyboard and percussion. Her hushed and expressive vocals describe a relationship that seems dysfunctional on multiple levels and the progression of the song gives the impression of Wester navigating troubled emotional waters which is an image she employs as a symbol of infatuation and being in sync with someone, or feeling like you are, until you realize that you’re not of a similar mind about the relationship and that one person might be emotionally in a place where they can’t be present with you and you can’t always be the person to pull them out of a bad place all the time. The lines “Wanted to be like you/Till I watched you drown” in the chorus and later in the song “Did you date me/And think there’s be no doubt?/Ain’t it lovely/Until the truth comes out” doesn’t spell out explicitly but makes clear something many people realize at some point in a relationship that’s bad for them and that’s that some people, and most people at some point in their lives and perhaps often enough at the beginning of the relationship, don’t want to be with a real person with a history and flaws and misunderstandings and, well, needs, normal human emotional needs. Without saying so word for word Webster has written a song about someone who has moved on and developed as a person who knows herself and other people better and recognizes that she deserves better than someone who won’t grow and has no seeming emotional incentive to do so but that she doesn’t have to be the one to help facilitate that change. Sure, it’s a pop song with an element of the ethereal running through it but the instrumentation becomes more lush as the song progresses to its inevitable conclusion like the work of art mirrors the psychological growth suggested in the lyrics. Listen to “Wanted To Be Like You” on Spotify and follow Wester at the links provided.

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